Saturday, May 22, 2004
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SIP Launch * Chewing Gum Is Available At All Leading Pharmacies!
Whoa. The SIP session I had early this morning somehow marked the beginning of my attachment... Met up with my Liaison Officer, Amy Daga and yeaps, a pretty nice lady but somewhat long-winded, cuz' she made full use of the classroom session time and ended @ 1pm on the dot! Bladdy sh*t... Got Elaine waiting till she starved. Haha. Went to dine at Cafe Cartel... Well, had the Hawaiian Pork Chops n nuggets n some of Laine's macaroni which had eggs, chicken, shrooms, etc. Oh YAh n not fergettin' Cream of chicken with no chicken in it. I realise i've become more picky about food when i go out to dine ever since i entered this course man!! But ultimately, i still love hawker food!! I still bladdy lurve the tantalizing ba chor mee @ bedok 85 market, spicylicious hang hgir or rather stingray @ chomp chomp & lau pa sat, yummy heh mee at Joo chiat...etc. There's just tooo many of them to mention!! =P
Oh yeahhh... Gum is back!! Wrigley's Orbit Sugarfree chewing gum are now displayed for purchase at all leading pharmacies!! They had a press conference @ Raffles Hotel n i was present to help in the function lah. Of course, kapoked some samples which some guests left behind n you know, the feeling of being able to now put a tab of gum into your mouth legally is... indescribable. Hah! So look out for these chewing gums yah! They come in 3 flavours, Peppermint, Tropical Fruit n Classic Fruit. Personally, Peppermint goes for me...! =)
Friendship
When n how do you know a friend is a friend and not a "friend"? Well, for me, i believe my buds know that i'm not someone who talks to somebody if i dun like him/her. "Hi" n "Bye" maybe, but definitely no more den school work or "where ya going?! okie! Enjoy yourself! *inserts fake smile*" Most of the time, i avoid talking to people whom i dun like if i can, to make my day happier. Well, others may think i'm dao or "attitude" but ultimately i do believe in being true to myself.
How many times have you encountered a person you regard as a friend turning out to be some "friend" who back stabs you n tries to outdo you? I've met some, in fact quite a number. And therefore, it never came across to me that friendship is something that can last forever. Not in my dictionary. I've had "friends" who talks behind my back, "friends" who got the entire class to condemn me, "friends" who got jealous over my "O" Level results, "friends" who thought i'm out to steal their boyfriends, "friends" who play me out at the last minute when i planned everything for them,etc. Friends? Hur.
When you're someone complex, people say you're scheming. When you're simple, people say you're naive. So what are we exactly suppose to do when we make friends? Yeah, many may say "Be sincere...!" Uh-huh. i've tried that. But it all depends on the other party too isn't it? Only when both parties show the same amount of sincerity do they become friends. I always thought friends are just some hi-bye people who enters at some stage in your life to enrich you and leaves when you reach another journey of your life. But i was wrong. Downright wrong. Who were the people who remembered me when i neglected them? Who were the people who cared for me when i was at the lowest point of my life? Who were the people who gave me encouragement when i needed them most? Who were the people who put me in their hearts n were there for me when our schedules were so busy dat we had no time to meet up? These people are my friends. Friends whom i can never do without. People who enters my life and leaves at another point are acquaintances. Friends are people who believes in you, who cares whether you're dead or alive, who shares your joy and sorrows, whom you believe will always be a part of your life, who's out there to protect your pride n dignity.
Sending my most sincere hugs & kisses to:
My Best O' Friends* Cindy, who never failed me (and taught me to swim). Elaine, who teaches and protects me & make me grow. Cissy, who relates her experience n makes me feel more comforted, all the time.
Friends I'll Remember* An-Li, who always excites me with her personality. Angela, who's always ready to give me a warm hug. Liwen, for being generous all the time & remembering my birthday. Jasmine, who is ever so ready to crack me up with her crankiness. Banglah, who makes me sleepy all the time but stands by me. My Clique @ Raffles including Andrew, Chin, Joshua, Jun Qi, Specky, Chee Wee, etc, who bullies me n protects me the same time but fills my day with laughter at work which made me love working at Raffles...!
There are so many people out there to mention because in some way or another, they have made me remember them because of the things that they have done... I do apologise for those people whom i might have missed out but please, do not fret because you guys are right here in my heart. =) P.S. And i do believe if you guys are my friends you wouldn't mind k. =P
Qeite < 5:57 PM
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Friday, May 21, 2004
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Sleepless Nights
Can never seem to go to sleep before 2am every night. Guess I'm used to it le.. Ever since my working days @ Raffles Hotel.
Guess what? I went out with the Dutch guy on Wednesday!!! Haha... With another guy n girl tho'. But they are a couple so that left us walking side by side, etc. =P We went to eat Tao's *GOSH* PleAse. Never go there. It's sarks. Big Time. The food ain't exactly nice and there ain't much variety also. There was photo taking session also!! Wahaha. I even walked with him from Dhoby Ghaut to Bugis before i took a train back home n *exciting*. We talked on msn n he actually called me after that!! whoOPsiE! n he msged me today to ask me how my day was!! HAHA. Well Dumb eH~! But anyway. This fella's going back to Netherlands soon... So sad huh... a very nice guy he is.
Peeps, i got this china jump privilege card which i can get 2 main courses for the price of one... Shall see when you guys are interested to dine there okie!
A Walk To Remember
I believe many have read this novel by Nicholas Sparks or perhaps watched the movie. Personally I've read this book for like thrice or more and it nevers fails to touch me. I'm lazy to talk about what this novel is about so just read to what i hafta say. Although this book was set in the 1950s, it really makes me wonder whether you know, undying devotion actually exists in this world.
Anyway, whoever thought that Jamie could change Landon so much? n to make him fall so deeply in love with her... That even though she was suffering from leukaemia, he was willing to marry her and remain a widower for life? Although it seems unbelievable that they did nothing sexual and were only together for 2 months before they got married and she died, I love the book. Why? Because it gives people hope dat true love exists in the world. But frankly speaking, people of our age, when they get involved in a relationship, where in the hell do you find an innocent relationship between a guy n a girl, who reads the Bible together, sit on the porch to talk, goes only to the extent of kissing, and talks about what "the Lord's plan" is and stuffs like that? You don't find it anywhere in this world now... Because people's brains are polluted with what they perceive as "true love". Yes, i do know that physical intimacy is all part of intensifying a relationship n a way of showing your affection for your partner n everything, but seldom do you see a relationship that builds individuals spiritually now. There might be, but i haven't seen one yet. People may think I'm wrong because all the time u see situations where people cry over a failed relationship but it never came across to them that it's because he/she was used to their partners being what people would call their "pillar of strength". But if you see it from another point of view, a relationship is what makes you learn and grow. To learn how you can take care of yourself and be independent so you can take care of your partner, to learn when you should let go of someone who doesn't love you anymore and feel happy for him/her in whatever he/she does in the future because you both have gained something from this relationship which guides you in forming your own perception of certain things and builds "you". Cissy always tells me "Be contented that it happened tho' it didn't last". Yea... I agree with it though not 100% because if i were to take that as my guiding principle, i'll probably be some bitch. LOls.
Anyway, back to the novel. I know i'm contradicting myself but although this book is a whole load of shit I love this book because it makes me believe that true n undying love does exists (n that's part of the reason why i only take wad cissy says which a pinch of salt. ^_^). ANd i always cry when i read it.
We always wonder why the people we like do not reciprocate our feelings and depreciate what we do for them. But more often than not, we ourselves are oblivious to the things that others do for us, ignorant to the feelings of the people who love us.
I always question myself, "There are actually people out there who appreciate me, why do i turn a blind eye to them n seek those who doesn't feel the same way as i do?" Because we take things for granted, and choose to pursue what we don't possess. I'm learning everyday, but i can't seem to put them into practice. HaH.
Qeite < 1:19 AM
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Sunday, May 16, 2004
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Chicken rice
Had a tiring day @ work last night... It was a western dinner, a wedding between 2 lawyers i think... And the entire ballroom was indeed decorated beautifully... Pretty friendly buncha ppl @ my table which included the wedding couple, everything went well and everything until the end of the dinner. Guess wad? They almost stripped the entire ballroom by removing the centre-pieces on the tables, the candles, the flowers... everything. They even wanted to remove the table cloths and at the same time, they were making those lame lawyers' jokes about being charged and blah blah blah. *ScrAtchEs heAd* Lawyers? stripping the entire ballroom when they can easily buy it outside with the amount of money they earned? Bahs. wHo cares? Although it shows their hidden kiasu-ness beneath their Oh-so-mighty look (which i can't stand), I would have to thank them for removing those flowers man... cos we din have to keep it away in the pantry. Haha. After the turnover and stuffs, i only reached home @ 3+am in the morning... n i din sleep until it was about 4.30am.
Woke up this afternoon by the voice of my dad asking what my mum wanted to eat. Maybe i should tell ya guys something about my dad. He's one of the endangered species. Never loses his temper in my 19 years of life, well maybe only once or twice, but that figure is almost unbelievable... He's really caring to the extent that i find him irritating at times. Lols. Well he bought chicken rice fer me today and as i looked up at him to thank him for buying lunch, i noticed specks of white on his hair. He's... aging. My dad's getting old. A surge of fear came over me. All his recent complaints over his eye and leg... His reluctance to visit the doctor... I realise that I'm slowly losing him to death. I'm not saying that he's dying any moment, but I know that i'm going to lose him one day. And it made me outrageously guilty of how i've been treating him, taking him for granted. He didn't deserve my treatment. In fact, he hadn't done anything wrong at all... Expressing my unhappiness on him whenever he knocked on my door at the wrong time to see if i had taken my dinner, waking me up early in the morning afraid that i might be late for school, cooking food which didn't suit my tastes... I mean, wasn't i supposed to be grateful for all the things he had done for the family? I really appreciate, i do. But i just can't help feeling that he's being Lor-Sor. I tell myself that i'm gonna to treat him better. All the time. But i simply coudln't put what i said into action. Now that i realise i'm going to lose him, I'm going to really try my very best. Daddy, i know you won't be reading this, but i'm sorry for all the times i've taken you for granted. Growing up in a family like ours really is a blessing for you and me, Mummy and korkors. Thank you for not giving up on us. You really deserve better. Happy Birthday. =)
Qeite < 5:00 PM
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Friday, May 14, 2004
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Bladdy Comp.
The computer sucks. I can't stand it. Hardware problem i think... n nobody got it repaired until today...! I have so much to rant about for the past 10 days or so man... Bladdy Shit.
Just realised blogger got a new look. Whoa. More kiddie tho'. HRrmMs. niwaez... Been doing a lot of shopping with the money i earned but it turned out that i've spent more than i earned... *SigH* Can't seem to stop man...! n yeS!! i bought a shower curtain which i proudly hang @ my door now... =) My newly-owned assets include: 2 pairs of shoes, some tops, some baggies, perfume n lotsa snacks from marks n spencer if u'd deem it as "assets". Haa. Getting hooked onto their snackies cos it's just simply "Ooh."
Well weLl.. been working like a bull/ox/cow/horse/donkie these days. Life revolves ard... Travelling btw home n workplace, teenie weenie shopping during one precious off day. Ah Hah.
*Inner Feelings*
Gee... Been thinking of this guy recently whom i used to like... i'm not too sure abt my feelings for him now... But i still do think of him tho'. He's this older guy la.. I think most of u guys who read this noes him. Well... have no idea wad's he doing or anything now... Just hope n pray that things are going on fine for him... Till now, i don't know y he left without a word... I searched myself, i don't think i did anything unappropriate or anything that pissed him off... That drifting apart was something that came gradually... Alot of ppl suggested that i try to contact him again... But to me, i was like "Huh? for waD?" Initially i was bent on finding out the answers and his explanations,etc. But? It never came... It was so tiring... All de msgings n unanswered calls... Everything. SIgh. wAs it something wrong on my part or he just had some difficulties? I still can't fathom why.
But anyway... Gotta move on with life right..! Me have always noticed this cute angmo from the place i work... He's dutch but he's a different breed from dose typical angmos... He's kinda "dao", nah i wudn't put it "dao", rather i wud say he's "shy". Ahh.. he just doesn't take the initiative to talk to strangers lah that's wad he came across to me n wad a fren told me (cos she know him, obviously). But one funny day... We talked. He approached me first!! Woo hOO. So from that day, whenever we see each other we would talk n smile to each other... One cute guy he is.. BUt funnily, we kinda distant ourselves when there are other ppl ard tho'. *Wonders why's that so* HahAH. At least dat's what I think. :P
But i found out that he's actually on attachment here... He still has one month b4 his attachment finishes and he'll be going back to his homelandDd... Sobbiez. There goes my chance. Haha. But well... It's nice to have an angmo fren oso right.. Keke. And we're probably meeting up to eat sometime next week... I'm looking forward to it!! HEH HEH HEH... I hope we do get the chance to meet up... *PrAYs hARd. Damn HaRd*
tsK tSK.. See.. I have so many things to tell ya guys who're readin' this. Don't close ya eyes! oh Yah. finally words b4 i stop typin'. I got his number. *winks*
Qeite < 10:57 PM
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Monday, May 03, 2004
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*Shopping Spree*
Okie! Maybe I should start making it a habit to blog eh... Sigh Oh Sigh. Went shopping today when i got my pay...! Went to zara.. Bought 2 tops n a skirt... Eyeliner n vitamin E spray mist n white musk for my mum @ body shop... Lotsa snack from marks n spencer... Spent approximately $200... Which made my day!! Been quite a while since i shopped cos i work like hell. HahaHa..
HrmMs... The new visa mini debit is out and because of it, i went to open an acc with UOB bank n applied for the card on the spot. Keke. The card, i thot, is nicer den the credit one... but when you pay for it ppl knows that it's debit la. Buden again, who cares? Keke.
I feel happier dese days. Great that junqi actually pin pointed where my life went wrong. I've been feeling unhappy cos of wad? *men* yea. n wad's the point when u actually like him but he doesn't reciprocate your love? i got myself into so much shit which ain't worth it at all. tsk tsk. But well.. Better to have realised my mistake later den never right...? n yes indeed, i feel so much happier n in control of my own life. that's why i shopped today and spent practically everything for myself 'cept for the white musk which i got for my mum. why? because mother's day is coming n i had to get something for heR!!! I remembered feeling so guilty that i din get anything for her birthday cos i was broke. din even have the bladdy courage to wish her a happy birthday... HAhaHAHa. How silly.
Well, tomorrow gotta go for an Xray @ chai chee.. Wonder if i'll find my way there. tsk tsk...
Qeite < 11:38 PM
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